General Updates

Voice4Society Article & General Update

It has been a while since I have posted any updates. It is hard keeping up with blog posts and getting to write due to the chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia. But today is one of my “wired-but-tired” days. Funny how your body can feel so revved up, but yet still feel so exhausted.

Anyway, I have finished an article earlier this week “The Story of Esther” for the Voice4Society blog. It has not been posted yet but when it is I will be sharing the link with you.

I have several articles I am planning to write but I am struggling to decide whether to publish them through the Yahoo Contributor Network, or go through magazines instead. My husband says I keep putting “the cart before the horse” , or worrying about where I am going to publish before I even have an article done. He says I should write first and then think about where I am going to publish and I know he says that because he is looking out for me. I am often so exhausted that thinking about publishing zaps what energy I have and then I am unable to write.

I am learning that with CFS/Fibromyalgia, I must think of things and do things a little differently if I am going to accomplish anything, let alone writing. There are many days I wish I had someone to manage the whole marketing and publicity thing for me. Just let me write and “here, you mange the rest”. But, I have no extra money to pay anyone so, I must spread things out do some writing here, and marketing/social networking there. It’s a lot to take for an Indie Author and you don’t have to have CFS/Fibro or a medical condition to feel how overwhelming it can be.

I am not giving up, however. I am not the kind of person to give in or give up. Life itself is full of challenges and facing them with God by my side is how I manage. Learning my limitations and sticking with them has been tough, but I am getting there and finding that when I work within the limitations I can do efficient work on my “good” days. I am learning it is not all about the quantity of what you can get done in a day, but the quality of what you finish and that you feel good about it.

Funny how you go on and talking about something you hadn’t intended to. Guess I felt, for some reason, I should. I know I am not the only author out there who has CFS and/or Fibromyalgia. Laura Hillenbrand has CFS too. (She is the author of Seabiscuit and Unbroken.) She has inspired me to keep on trying, and perhaps, as I started writing and all this CFS/Fibro stuff came out, I felt I could inspire someone too.

So now I am off to venture in some writing. Where the path may lead, we shall see!

 

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Changes…Changes…Changes…

So I here I sit at my laptop, my brain swarming with ideas…fiction…nonfiction…historical…health/food related…poetry…articles…novels… Aye! If I was an octopus I could probably work on all of these things….though I would need more sets of eyes to go with those extra hands. Prioritizing your ideas and tasks is never an easy thing to do. But that is where I am at. 

Camp NaNo for this month has been put on hold. The story I was working on WILL be written, but the timing of it I don’t think is right. I have other pressing nonfiction stories to write in article and book form. Once I have those done, I am confident my very creative fiction side of me will kick in and I’ll be back to working on Facade (title pending). 

The corruption in the food industry is heavily on my mind…I am a mom, wife, friend, sister, aunt, cousin, daughter, step-daughter, daughter-in-law…a cook and baker. It saddens me to hear of how a large company Monsanto has been destroying our food chain by altering our food and killing off insects (some beneficial like the honey bee) and they claim they are doing nothing wrong and GMO foods or genetically modified food, is safe for us those studies have proven otherwise. Due to this, my family and I have taken drastic actions in what we eat and have eliminated some foods completely. I am very passionate about this subject and if you’d like to read more I highly recommend this site: http://www.takepart.com/foodinc

General Updates

Recovery

I sit here in a quiet house, everyone asleep, and the clock is about to tick midnight, Ah and so it did, On February 28th, I had surgery on my left hand for severe carpal tunnel syndrome. My hand is healing nicely and only have pain once in a while or if I accidently stretch my hand and pull the stitches.

On Thursday I get the stitches removed and then I’ll find out what comes after that.

It has been a challenge typing one-handed and things take longer to get done. It was frustrating at first, but I have learned to be patient with myself, as well as reminding myself that this is temporary.

Not sure when I’ll be back to writing regularly, but I will keep you all updated! So thankful God made me ambidextrous. I don’t know what I would do if I wasn’t.

My best to all and God bless!

 

General Updates

On Vacation — Well Recovery

I just wanted to write and let everyone know that tomorrow I will be having surgery on my left wrist for carpal tunnel issues and so may not be posting anything for a while.  I didn’t want anyone to think I just disappeared or forgotten my readers. Nope! Still here, just will be in recovery phase for a few weeks and then back to writing which will be great. Maybe I’ll actually be able to feel the pen in my hand and the keys of the keyboard under my fingers a little better. lol.

Well, off to get a snack and then do what I can today because after surgery tomorrow morning, I won’t be able to do much for the next few weeks. Good time to get some reading done!

God bless!

Voice4Society

Article for Voice4Society

Okay so I have been working on this one article and have over 1000 words typed up, but wouldn’t you know it. Something already doesn’t feel right about it. I think I may have to go through it and do some reworking. My plan was to have this article done and submitted to Voice4Society by tomorrow evening, but I don’t think I am going to make the deadline I had planned. That doesn’t mean I am not going to try my darndest though. Sure as heck am!

I don’t usually work with outlines, but I think I may have to in this instance. When I am working on the article, I am not only typing up what I have written, but find that when I am typing, I am adding in things I hadn’t thought of previously, however, they may not be in the order I would like to talk about them. Hmm….

The next step, I think I will finish going through the motions of typing and adding in what comes to mind that pertains to the  piece I am working on. If it is one thing I have learned is not to rework something before you even have the rough draft. It totally interrupts the flow of creativity. Best to get everything down first and then go back and do some reworking.

I also need to come up with a title for this piece as well. It is about grief and I was intending to capture my experience with losing a parent while a teenager, however, there are other instances of grief and variances of grief that people feel when it is a parent, a sister, brother, aunt, uncle, cousin, grandparent, pet, etc. All of these have their own degree of pain and loss, depending on how close one is to their family, friends and pets.

Hmmm… my mind is going in a few directions now as I continue to type this blog entry. I see several ways I could go:

1) Personal experience article with loss of parent while I was a teenager

2) Personal experiences with losing pets

3) Personal experiences with losing a classmate

4) Personal experience with losing grandparents

5) Personal experience with losing a teacher/family friend

Okay… so this list can go a little further…..and these are all referring to loss and grief by way of death. It just occurred to me that there are other forms of grief as well such as school friends going off to college and losing touch, or parents divorcing, not being able to keep a pet due to allergies, etc. Grief takes many forms, more so than I had previously thought when beginning my article.

Huh….talk about so many ideas I am not sure which way to go for this one article. I will do some thinking and praying about this and will probably contact Voice4Society and see what they prefer right now. Won’t hurt to ask.

Well, guess it is off to get to work. Best of luck to all you writers out there! God bless!

Book Reviews

Rev. Robert E. Stoudt’s Valley of Depression, Mountain of Victory

Just a few minutes ago I finished reading, Valley of Depression, Mountain of Victory, by Rev. Robert E. Stoudt. In his book, Pastor Stoudt talks about this decent into depression, which we all know can happen in various ways, but for him, it was due to several deaths happening close together. When you read through this book you will discover how life became hard for him during his depression and panic attacks and what things he did that helped get through that valley of darkness and how God helped him back to the top of the mountain top.

This book is full of insight into the world of depression and how it can change one’s life, yes, even a Pastor’s life. No one is safe from depression and can people of all ages and of any race and in any career. Pastor Stoudt also offers several references into the Bible that support and add to his writing and show, clearly, how God is there to help you through affliction and that afflictions helps us to grow stronger and be more Christ-like, which is what we Christians strive for.

You will also find poetry and lyrics in this book that are a beautiful addition to this work.

I admit, I really felt for Pastor Stoudt in this book, knowing myself what it was like going through depression, and quite a while I was praying to God for help in my own writing because I could not figure out what to write about. When I started reading Valley of Depression, Mountain of Victory it was like BAMB! God had given me my answer. Like Pastor Bob, I too could write about what caused my depression and anxiety disorder and how my faith also helped me through to that mountain top. I could not believe through months of prayer and waiting on God for an answer of what He would like me to do, that my answer would come from reading a book. But that’s just the thing with God. He gives you answers when you least expect it and in ways you never think of. He is full of surprises and that is just one of the things I enjoy about my relationship with God. He never ceases to amaze me.

Above, I briefly wrote about Pastor Stoudt’s book, but I plan on writing a  more detailed review of his book soon. Then to follow that will be an author interview. So please check back in couple of weeks or so for those items.

The next book by an Indie author is The Spirit Keeper by Melissa Luznicky Garret. You can find out more about Melissa by visiting her blog.

I’ll be back soon! 😉

Camp NaNoWriMo

Day 25 of Camp NaNo – Early Morning

 

It’s just after 1:40AM when I’m writing this. I have been working on my book for a couple of hours, trying not to be distracted by other things. It’s VERY hard to do some times. When I started writing I had, 26,892 words and at quitting time I had 29,376 for a total of 2,484 words written this time. Now I just need to update the Camp NaNo site with my new word count.

I am working on chapter three right now and I so wanted to finish it tonight…er….this morning, however, when the screen starts to get fuzzy even though you’re wearing your glasses and your stomach starts to get upset and you can’t stop yawning, I’m guessing those are VERY good indicators it’s time to stop pushing myself into the feeling sick territory and go to bed.

I need to get my mind of depression and find something happy to think about before bed. Hope I can do that, but I have a feeling after my head hits the pillow I’ll be out.

I feel great after my accomplishment and getting further in this book and I pray all you other NaNoers are making progress as well. If not, don’t give up. Writing isn’t always an easy thing to do. I had a hard time starting earlier on the 24th but by late that evening everything just began to flow. Strange how that happens. You just never know when the time is going to be right for your those words to fly from your brain to the keyboard.

One of my favorite quotes is: “Never give up hope…at least not so early in the fight.” ~ Rayden, Mortal Kombat Annihilation

Miss watching that movie! Sorry. I had better get to bed before I start rambling some more. Night all and many blessing for another day! 🙂

 

Camp NaNoWriMo

Day 24 for August Camp NaNo 2012

 

It’s after 10PM on the east coast and I have the opportunity to work on my memoir about depression, what caused it, and how I came out of it with God‘s help.

The desire to write, to tell my story is there, but also lingering within me is fear. Fear of going back to those places that caused such pain and sadness. It is hard to write about one’s experiences in relation to hard times especially losing not only one loved one, but several. I sit here with a need to tell my story believing what I say may help someone out there, but also that writing it out may be therapy for me, and praise to God who helped me through that valley to the mountain top so to speak.

But how to get through those moments that make you want to cry…or just push the book off somewhere else and find something else to work on. Just because I don’t feel depressed, doesn’t mean that the pain of losing someone is gone. It’s still there and I believe that is what is causing me to struggle on with this book. I believe that God puts struggles in our path for a reason and that is to help us grow to become stronger for whatever purpose He may have for us. Since I believe this, and since I believe that with God I have nothing to fear, I must practice what I believe and press on.

So currently, my book stands at 26,892 words. I will now end this post and work more on my book and write another post before I hit the sack and let you all know how I have done. But first, a little prayer to God to help me with this journey.

Back later!

 

Camp NaNoWriMo

Camp NaNo Day #23

 

Here I am on the 23rd of Camp NaNo. It’s just after midnight here on the east coast of the U.S. My mind things of the story I should be writing, but my stomach is yelling it’s monstrous voice to feed it, and my eyes and mind are screaming “Let me sleep, PLEASE!” Oh, what to do  in moments like these, knowing you must press on to meet that deadline? Knowing the next chapter you are about to write is going to be hard, but knowing it will lead to a published work someday that will prayerfully help at least one person in the world.

My desire and my heart want to continue on, but I am afraid I must call it a night. Get a snack to quiet the beast in my gut and close my eyes to end the constant straining to keep them open and rest my mind so that tomorrow…or should I say later today…I’ll be able to do more writing and make more progress on my book than before.

Ah, sleep is a friend and I know I must relinquish to it. But it is hard when the words come and with them feelings and dialogue…all plays in the sleeping mind, waiting, wanting, yearning to be written for other eyes to see. By I must quiet the mind with prayer and let God take over my sleepy body and ease me into a restful sleep.

Camp NaNo day #23 continues….much later today. 🙂 Night all!

 

Camp NaNoWriMo

21st Day of August Camp NaNo

 

I haven’t done ANY writing on my book today. Spent about four hours working on my cooking and catering course through the Stratford Career Institute while my 3 yr old daughter did her “school work” on abcmouse.com. We just signed her up today and started her on the preschool level. I gave her several chances to take a break but she loved it so much she didn’t want to quit! lol. So I just finished my school work and took my second exam and got a 95! Yea!

But anyway, back to my Camp NaNo story. I don’t have a title for it yet, but it is about my story on depression and how I got through it…however, I have  an idea for another book has been really working in my head. I keep trying to push it away. I’ll have to save it for the November NaNo.

So tonight, while my husband works on writing a computer program for me, I’ll be working beside him on my Camp NaNo story for this month. Only have a little over 26,000 words. Not sure if I’ll make the goal, but I’m dang well gonna try. Thing is writing about depression and things that cause it is hard. Brings back some emotions so I’ll have to do a little at a time and then have a “happier” break before bed like watching some comedy or something

Well, the dinner bell is ringing folks so I best go and get the hubby and daughter some dinner and get myself some while I’m at it. Then we’ll tend the garden, get the daughter to bed and then it is writing time!!! Or…that’s that plan..but we all know plans can change, don’t we? lol

See later my friends. I will be back later tonight with another report on my progress. Cheers!

~Janis~