Creativity

STOP! Let Creativity In

I have been having an awful time getting creative and so I did some searches on You Tube and around the net about letting creativity in. Here is one article I came across. WARNING: The author swears several times. Hopefully you can overlook that. http://terribleminds.com/ramble/2012/10/02/25-ways-to-get-your-creative-groove-back-as-a-writer/

He has some good points in there and some things I already do. But something I’ve realized is that I have been struggling with anxiety when it comes to writing. I haven’t understood why when I used to love writing so much. Just at some point there was anxiety, or maybe the anxiety just happened to sneak it’s way in just as I was writing. Because there are points during the day I do just fine writing and then later in the day I get anxious and then I struggle to think straight and need a break, maybe even a nap to “reset” my brain.

You see, I get up at 5:30 in the morning…or rather that’s when my alarm goes off. I wake up anywhere between 2AM – 4AM and I usually take a nap when I put my son down for his name between noon and 1PM. But when I’m hypomanic forget it, I can’t sleep. I make it to dinner but around 6-7PM I’m yawning and can barely stay awake. Yes, I’m in bed that early. I miss out on the evening with my family, but I’m hoping another trip to my doctor’s office I can get something to help me sleep. That would help.

Something I have to realize as well is that I have fibromyalgia on top of having a mental illness so I also have to deal with fibro fog. Here are some websites I’ve visited:
http://www.cfidsselfhelp.org/library/lifting-fog-treating-cognitive-problems

https://www.webmd.com/fibromyalgia/guide/fibromyalgia-and-fatigue#1

So I have been learning to do meditation before I sit down to write. I also pray as my faith is deeply rooted in who I am. While I’m writing I also remind myself that I’m writing for the FUN of it and not to worry about the publishing aspects yet.
A very important thing I am learning is to write when there isn’t a lot going on, no kids screaming for me, chores are done or can wait, and the best times for me are in the morning. So figuring out a schedule and meditating have really helped get me into a relaxed state and my creativity has been so much better for it.

Stress and really pushing myself to work as fast as I could in the short few hours I have to write just put too much stress on me as well as gave me anxiety and I mentally shut down. I wasn’t able to get anything done.

What do you do when you find you’re struggling with your creativity?

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General Updates

Fibromyalgia & The Author Platform

I have been in flux for about a year or so about doing away with Twitter, my Facebook page, and my blog, together known as the Author Platform. This is not that I believe it’s a bad idea. I don’t. It’s good for those who can manage it, or if you can hire someone to manage it for you.

With a chronic illness (fibromyalgia) this is difficult to do. Some days I barely have energy to pull myself out of bed without crying and get my daughter ready and off to school. This is not counting house hold chores and caring for the dogs that some days are overwhelming and my muscles hurt and shake when I try to do anything. Then add on to the desire of wanting to write, but then realizing in order to gain a following it is suggested you create an Author Platform and consistently update those who are following you.

Maintaining an Author Platform is hard enough for a person without a chronic illness. It takes time to set up and to maintain and this is time taken away from other areas of your life. With fibro I have limited energy, or spoons, to use in a day. And I have to decide what to use that energy on.

I still desire to write, but keeping up an Author Platform has become stressful and I am resenting it. It has become something that is overwhelming because I know those of you who follow me are expecting updates from me, but I cannot always deliver those updates. I feel by keeping my Twitter, Facebook page, and blog open,  I am leading you on waiting for updates when there are times there are no updates. You are expecting something from me I cannot guarantee I can deliver. It weighs on me you are expecting an update or news of  new book release but there hasn’t been one. I must be honest with you, my followers, and with myself. I will continue to write but I will not be a slave to the Author Platform movement. Sometimes we have to figure out what works for us in our current circumstances and do what we can within our limitations. This is a choice I have to make. I will keep up my Twitter, Facebook page, and blog going and I will post when I can.

Changes are coming, and I will keep you posted on the developments.

Thank you for following me and commenting. God bless and take care.

~Janis~

Camp NaNoWriMo

CampNanoWriMo Day 7

DCF 1.0

Today is day 7 of CampNaNoWriMo! How are you doing on your novel so far?

I haven’t been making a post every day here like I had planned. The weekend was far busier than expected so no writing of any sort got done on Saturday and Sunday. Trying to do some catch up now.

It’s a little after 4AM and I’m sitting in front of the pellet stove with a raging fire and a my Chihuahua Brie at my feet. KLove is playing through my headphones while my hubby and daughter sleep. I have an hour before the hubby has to be up for work so what better way to spend time than to write when you can’t sleep. Well, I could sleep if wasn’t restless legs kicking in. Just one of the many fibromyalgia symptoms that are annoying. Oh, well. I’ve learned that when symptoms keep me awake it’s best to be productive than wallow in the “Why me?” phase and be upset that I can’t get the sleep I want to. What’s the point? Getting upset will only make me feel worse and can increase my symptoms. Yes, this is a topic for one of my next books after the one I’m currently writing, Secret Anguish: Discovering Celiac Disease.

With Secret Anguish I am currently working on chapter two and I believe I am almost finished with it. It’s exciting to see progress and that makes me want to keep on writing. I will be working on chapter three soon, perhaps today!

What about you? How are you doing with your novel? Are things flowing easily, or are you struggling with writer’s block? Do you listen to music when you’re writing? If so, what do you listen to? I’d love to hear from you! Feel free to leave comments.

Have a great day and Happy CampNaNo Day 7! 🙂 Good luck on today’s word count!

Writing Updates

Crisp Cold & Hiding Away

Many of you may be asking: “Where have YOU been?”

Ah yes, where have I been? Good question.

I am still here. Looking back I can’t believe my last post was in November. Yikes! My plan was to post a LOT more often. Life has given us a few hiccups which are stressful and my part time job as an editor has kept me away from my own blogging and my own writing. Between all that has been going on I haven’t been able to keep up with my work, hence, the amount of posts I’d like to make have diminished.

Christmas is almost here. I have Christmas music playing and I may wrap a few presents today. But then I have to get back to my editing job. I’m almost finished going through the book so my job is almost done. (sigh) That’s the way of it though. You have a project and can make a steady income for several months and then when the project is complete, it’s back to relying on one income, which, let’s face it, this day in age, is very hard to live on. But, looking at the bright side, I’ll be able to get back into my own writing. I’ve had ideas spinning in my head for months for like three different books. Question is: which one will I work on after this job is finished? Isn’t that always a stumbling block for us writers? Do you ever struggle with which project to work on? I’d be surprised if you didn’t. I swear if it’s not deciding which project to work on, it’s having chosen a book and once you’re into it, getting strong ideas for another book! Ugh! lol A writer’s mind is never quiet, always thinking, dreaming, scheming.

The three books I’m thinking of have to deal with the following topics: 1) discovery of having celiac disease (how it affected me, what had to change, and how I’m doing now), 2) discovery of having fibromyalgia (how it’s affected my life, my family, and how my faith has helped me deal with setbacks) 3) losing my mother at the age of 17 (how I was her caretaker, the effects it’s had, and how my faith helped me as a teen to get through that difficult time and I wish to inspire other teens who have lost parents.)

Okay, so there is a fourth about having PTSD, but, even if I wrote that one, I’m not sure about publishing it. So that one I’ll probably write for myself, at least for now.

I just have so many ideas and insights for those four topics and I feel being brave and sharing my experiences will encourage others.

That is my update for right now. I don’t have much to say about my writing because of the editing job, but I will keep you posted as this job winds down.

Have a great day!

november nano

Two Days And Counting!!!

NaNo is just about here! Two days (roughly) go. I have a synopsis written and part of an outline. I only know how part of this story is going to unfold. That’s part of the fun though, discovering how your story will unfold as you write it.

Feeling pretty tired today, but still remaining optimistic. Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue can sure put a crimp in things. Regardless, I am going to do my best on my good days and on my bad days, give myself a break. After all, NaNo is supposed to be fun. I just have to remind myself of that and not get stressed out if I fall behind. Will do what I can and see how God works.

How are you doing on your preparations?

Do you have a chronic illness that impedes your writing? How do you handle it? Do you try to stay optimistic through the NaNo month?

Best of luck to everyone in during your preparations!

 

General Updates

Voice4Society Article & General Update

It has been a while since I have posted any updates. It is hard keeping up with blog posts and getting to write due to the chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia. But today is one of my “wired-but-tired” days. Funny how your body can feel so revved up, but yet still feel so exhausted.

Anyway, I have finished an article earlier this week “The Story of Esther” for the Voice4Society blog. It has not been posted yet but when it is I will be sharing the link with you.

I have several articles I am planning to write but I am struggling to decide whether to publish them through the Yahoo Contributor Network, or go through magazines instead. My husband says I keep putting “the cart before the horse” , or worrying about where I am going to publish before I even have an article done. He says I should write first and then think about where I am going to publish and I know he says that because he is looking out for me. I am often so exhausted that thinking about publishing zaps what energy I have and then I am unable to write.

I am learning that with CFS/Fibromyalgia, I must think of things and do things a little differently if I am going to accomplish anything, let alone writing. There are many days I wish I had someone to manage the whole marketing and publicity thing for me. Just let me write and “here, you mange the rest”. But, I have no extra money to pay anyone so, I must spread things out do some writing here, and marketing/social networking there. It’s a lot to take for an Indie Author and you don’t have to have CFS/Fibro or a medical condition to feel how overwhelming it can be.

I am not giving up, however. I am not the kind of person to give in or give up. Life itself is full of challenges and facing them with God by my side is how I manage. Learning my limitations and sticking with them has been tough, but I am getting there and finding that when I work within the limitations I can do efficient work on my “good” days. I am learning it is not all about the quantity of what you can get done in a day, but the quality of what you finish and that you feel good about it.

Funny how you go on and talking about something you hadn’t intended to. Guess I felt, for some reason, I should. I know I am not the only author out there who has CFS and/or Fibromyalgia. Laura Hillenbrand has CFS too. (She is the author of Seabiscuit and Unbroken.) She has inspired me to keep on trying, and perhaps, as I started writing and all this CFS/Fibro stuff came out, I felt I could inspire someone too.

So now I am off to venture in some writing. Where the path may lead, we shall see!

 

my opinions

What’s Your Favorite Content Submission Site?

Alright so there are magazines out there looking for articles of all different topics and lengths, and can take forever to get published by. Now there are, and have been for several years now, these online content submission sites such as:

And on the list goes!

Out of the sites you have tried, which do you think is best and why? Do you think publishing by any of these means is less professional than seeking out a magazine out of the Writer’s Market?

I have been writing for Yahoo Voices (associated content) since 2006 but have really slacked off in the last year or two. I am signed up at hubpages but have not posted a single hub.I have tried getting into Suite 101, and Examiner.com but was denied. It seems you can get published more easily by those who don’t pay much if anything at all, but others like Suite 101, and Examiner.com have stricter guidelines to publish and turn people away. I don’t even know how much these guys pay, since I have not been able to get in with them.

My hang up with the “other” guys? Payment. I do a lot of research for topics I write and I’d like to get paid a reasonable amount for the time and research and I put into my writing. I am a stay at home mom with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome so I write in spurts, when I am having my good days. Regardless of these physical ailments, writing is a challenge and takes time for anyone and I believe we should be paid fairly for the research we do and the work we produce. For my personally, I feel like these pages are an “easy” way to get published and in front of people, but honestly, when people see that you have been published on these sites, do they take you as a serious writer, or has the definition of “serious writer” changed over the past few years with so many new means of publishing?

Does it matter to you, the writer, that you get paid for what you write, or do you just like writing and publishing and don’t really care too much if you are paid?

I am not trying to put anyone down here, just curious to the different views out there, and I know this can be a controversial topic. Feel free to post your thoughts. Really curious what others are thinking about this.

Have a great day and keep writing!

 

Secret Anguish

Book Update

Well, I am back again and my mind is just going with thoughts of working on Secret Anguish: My Journey to Better Health. However, the book will be separated into several shorter books. Each book will show my experience through certain things and how God helped me through each one. So the books are part my story and part testimony to show God still working in the world, in the lives of His children.

The books I am going to write do not currently have any titles, but the subjects are this:
1)Post traumatic stress disorder
2)Gluten Intolerance
-development of food allergies
-development of environmental allergies
-development of asthma
3)Pre-diabetes (insulin resistance)
-led to obesity
-led to signs of PCOS but not full blown PCOS
4)Fibromyalgia

I have numbered the books in the order I’ll be working on them. I still have some research to do for some of these, but I think for the most part, I can begin work on the first and second book since I have them already written in one stage. I just have to go back through them and make sure they say what I want them to say and remove or add a few things.

At this point, I am not sure if I will have to rewrite the books, but I will take a more thorough look and take notes on what all has to be done. May even use outlines which I’m not usually known for using, but may in this case.

So that is the latest update on the projects I have in the works. Please, keep visiting to see more updates. Thanks for reading! 🙂