Camp NaNoWriMo

Day 24 for August Camp NaNo 2012

 

It’s after 10PM on the east coast and I have the opportunity to work on my memoir about depression, what caused it, and how I came out of it with God‘s help.

The desire to write, to tell my story is there, but also lingering within me is fear. Fear of going back to those places that caused such pain and sadness. It is hard to write about one’s experiences in relation to hard times especially losing not only one loved one, but several. I sit here with a need to tell my story believing what I say may help someone out there, but also that writing it out may be therapy for me, and praise to God who helped me through that valley to the mountain top so to speak.

But how to get through those moments that make you want to cry…or just push the book off somewhere else and find something else to work on. Just because I don’t feel depressed, doesn’t mean that the pain of losing someone is gone. It’s still there and I believe that is what is causing me to struggle on with this book. I believe that God puts struggles in our path for a reason and that is to help us grow to become stronger for whatever purpose He may have for us. Since I believe this, and since I believe that with God I have nothing to fear, I must practice what I believe and press on.

So currently, my book stands at 26,892 words. I will now end this post and work more on my book and write another post before I hit the sack and let you all know how I have done. But first, a little prayer to God to help me with this journey.

Back later!

 

Camp NaNoWriMo

21st Day of August Camp NaNo

 

I haven’t done ANY writing on my book today. Spent about four hours working on my cooking and catering course through the Stratford Career Institute while my 3 yr old daughter did her “school work” on abcmouse.com. We just signed her up today and started her on the preschool level. I gave her several chances to take a break but she loved it so much she didn’t want to quit! lol. So I just finished my school work and took my second exam and got a 95! Yea!

But anyway, back to my Camp NaNo story. I don’t have a title for it yet, but it is about my story on depression and how I got through it…however, I have  an idea for another book has been really working in my head. I keep trying to push it away. I’ll have to save it for the November NaNo.

So tonight, while my husband works on writing a computer program for me, I’ll be working beside him on my Camp NaNo story for this month. Only have a little over 26,000 words. Not sure if I’ll make the goal, but I’m dang well gonna try. Thing is writing about depression and things that cause it is hard. Brings back some emotions so I’ll have to do a little at a time and then have a “happier” break before bed like watching some comedy or something

Well, the dinner bell is ringing folks so I best go and get the hubby and daughter some dinner and get myself some while I’m at it. Then we’ll tend the garden, get the daughter to bed and then it is writing time!!! Or…that’s that plan..but we all know plans can change, don’t we? lol

See later my friends. I will be back later tonight with another report on my progress. Cheers!

~Janis~

 

PTSD

Dilema – Fiction or Nonfiction on PTSD Novel

So for the past few weeks I have not gotten any writing done. Why, you may ask? Because I can’t decide on whether to write a book on my experience with post traumatic stress disorder as nonfiction, or write in a fictional way but have it “based on a true story”.  So many questions run through my head:

1) Which version would hold the most weight my audience?

2) Which would be the most beneficial to others if they read my story?

3) In which version, would be the easiest for me to tell my story?

If you were to read a book on someones experience with post traumatic stress, would you want to read the true account, or would your rather read it in a fictional context, but know that the events that happened in the book were true? I welcome any feedback.